The flight is booked, which for me is the definitive moment. I’ll be going to Philadelphia over New Year’s to study 2nd series with David Garrigues. David is an amazing yogi whose blog I’ve been following for a while now. I also have his first series 2 DVD set. It is as if he’s on fire from within and I want what he has. Or I at least want to get a little more of the texture, the feel of that inner fire.
I dreamed last night that J adjusted me in janu sirsasana, only I didn’t get much from it because I was sort of sleeping through the practice for some reason, completely distracted. But as he walked away I called him back to tell him that Robert had helped me get bound in Marichyasana D. Distraction, that is my focus this week, for I’m beginning to realize that rather than worrying so much about whether I can bind in this or that pose, whether I can jump through without getting stuck, although these are all very interesting and wonderful things, the heart of the practice is the moving meditation that I’m only beginning to understand. I’m more or less blowing that half the time or more in my home practice. It’s easier to get that level of concentration in the studio, surrounded by others all working on the same thing. But at home- I get ideas. A song I could play in my next vinyasa class, an email pings in, a blog post idea. So this week I’m working on the meditative aspect of the practice. Complete focus on drishti (gaze or focal point), asana, bandha (energetic lock or uplifting). Even in class on friday I kept forgetting to inhale to virabhadrasana A in the surya namaskara Bs, I kept forgetting where I was in the practice. I completely forgot to do bhujapidasana-supta kurmasana. I can forgive myself, there are reasons why I’m distracted lately, but still… Back to work!